Monday, December 3, 2012

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Half-year; Half-life

6 months has passed. Yes, exactly 6 months. Since my last post anyway. So, how are you?

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Seeking Comfort

There is always going to be a totally "skfhkhfe" time.
So what do you do?
What do I do?

Let me count thee ways.

Firstly, I started ingesting a lot more alcohol. Not the most healthy thing to do but hey, a way to cope is a way to cope. I do not even like alcohol. Really. Honestly.

Secondly, I started to do a lot more and think a lot more about doing things by myself. If you know me, that is practically breaking new ground in Amy's world. I do not go anywhere myself; I can hardly keep quiet for five minutes for goodness sake! I mean yes, I have my "Me-times" which usually involves massive holing up at home (sprawled on the couch or baking in the kitchen) or hiding in ze library lost in the world of make-believe, so yes, breaking new ground here. Here is a list of things that I have done or am thinking of doing alone (if you care to read that is):

Grab a/a few drinks at a bar
Get lost in the night sky scenery/staring at MBS for 2 hours in 4 plus-inch heels
Spend a whole afternoon in the bookstore
Dine at a restaurant/Table for one
Work late in the office till 12am (not by choice really)
Chill at the beach
Go to the movies
Ride a bicycle
Travel to San Fran + Vegas
And the list will go on.

Thirdly, sleep! A. Lot.
Escapism at its best!

Fourthly and I believe we all do this, we make/buy and eat comfort food. Repeat. And again.
So, one of the my go-to comfort food would be brownies. Not just any old Blondie but thick, intense, fudge-y chocolate brownies. And well pies, pies and all things pastry.

Les Trois Mousquetaires

I made these babies for a potluck I was going to. Wellllll, not really. Le brothers ate the chocolate tart I made for the potluck so bringing the brownies was sort of the back-up plan. Being the back-up plan meant that I had to rack my brains to make them not back-up-ish, so I melted some dark chocolate and crushed up some extra chocolate pastry left over from making the chocolate tart,

Crushed Choc Pastry Crust

chopped up some macadamia nuts,

Choc Macadamia

swirled some mint chocolate,

Mint Choc

et voila!

Well, here's to you and your coping mechanisms to get through all the "abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz" times in your lives! Cheers!



Monday, February 27, 2012

New World

I missed you. How have you been?
It is amazing, this concept of time. A second can seem like an eternity and likewise, an eternity can last like a second. In less than a quarter of a year, the “life” that I know so well ended and I am trying to live in this new world. Change? Easier said than done.
Answering “Ok, I am fine” to the simple question of “How are you?” that used to require the most minimal amount of effort now requires so much emotional work.  An “Are you Ok?” can cause a whole waterfall of tears to fall rather than replying with a customary nod or smile. Of course, all this will pass and I will eventually get back to the routine of performing simple customaries (or not). Before that though, I am going to be stuck firmly in the seat of an emotional roller-coaster that spins indefinitely and I cannot do anything about it.
An optimist I am not. I see half-empty cups and I know the world is far from being a happy place. However, as much as I am skeptical about pretty much everything, I do believe in happiness, no matter how short-term and temporal it is. Therefore, in order to get some of these moments of short-lived happiness, I am willing to sink in my whole entire stock of hope.
Will you wish me luck?